Road of Change

This story is written from the perspective of Jrkiller

Years ago at the dawn of the new spring, friendship and bonds of the new age were finally understanding more about the feeling of emotions. Here in this tale of emotions and twists we follow Jack, as his path soon changes to take on the new feelings of departure.

Waking up this morning was pretty odd, even though it had been for a while, I wanted to make sure everything was set for Clara. Sure, things had started to change between us from when we first met at the start of nursery but I was thrilled to understand we'd be seeing each other again. I'll admit that she's a nice girl but nothing serious could really develop. Besides, it would be impossible.
The feeling when I stepped outside the house to meet her was a bit nerve teasing, as she really had changed alot from before. She'd grown her dark brown hair and added a few spots of blonde in, her body was slim and slender and her eyes almost seemed in a gaze looking out to the fields around my house. I walked up to her slowly, trying to keep quiet so she wouldn't notic
e. But then she closed her eyes and smiled. "It's been a while Jack, I never thought we'd meet again", her eyes opened softly and looked at me.
"Yea, it's been a long time since we met last." I tried to sound casual but I just wanted to keep the laughter inside of me shut down because this really did seem too good to be true. She took my hand and started to walk around, talking about all sorts of things of course and how things have changed alot through the years. Her smile seemed to have a growing effect on me, I felt like we were still kids playing around with life and not understanding nearly everything. We soon stopped at a small cafe were we had some drinks and a late brunch. It was really interesting hearing about what she had done and , aside the fact that I hated some aspects of music, she had a pretty good taste. She started to drone on for a bit sadly, so I called the attention of a waitor to pay the bill.
After we exited the cafe her attitude started to change more from the shy girl she was to a more suggestive girl. At first I tried not to notice but then she started to come on to me quite hard. I didn't want to be impolite so I told her I'd take her to a place in the nearby floral gardens. It seemed to be a good idea but then she held my hand as we walked along to the entrance. Immediatly I took my hand away from her grip and looked to the side nervously. Suddenly she just grabbed me with both arms and embraced me closely.
"Clara, what on earth are you doing?"
"What? I just missed being able to touch you", those words chilled my spine and I relaxed my body at that moment. "See, you like it don't you?"
"No I just want to understand why your even acting like this.."
"Well, I'll explain at the park alright? You said there was a place you know"
"Yea, noone will be able to hear us there..." The moment I said those words, i regretted it with my heart and soul.
"Oh, alright then Jack."


As soon as we got to the place I was talking to her about she calmed down a bit, but not in the right way. I'm not too sure if she was consious of what she was doing but she asked me to look away and when I turned back she was looking deeply at me with her shirt unbuttoned in such a way you could almost see her body in more detail. I was about to open my mouth but she just pushed herself on me and started to stroke my hand. I have no idea how red I became but I had to just say the question.
"Er.. Clara how is your love life been?" I said it like some desperate fool, which I wasn't. I didn't know what would happen next.
"I'm single of course, but I've found a man I like," she replied in such a lustful way, her hand started to move closer to my chest.
"Oh really?, well I'm currently inlove with a girl," this was going to end badly but I had to stop this insanity. I flipped out a picture of her from my pocket and put it in her hand. "See? her name is Kim and we've been dating for a while now. Clara just fell quiet. She looked at the picture and then at me. Her eyes fell from a deep emotion into a dark isolation. The wind blew softly and the sun's rays fell on us both softly like a light rain in the afternoon heatwave.
"You asshole..." She stood up and slapped me, it hurt but it wasn't the first time. She ran away silently into the huge garden and my heart fell down into my stomach. I ran after her, my eyes were trying to hold back the tears of this but it hurt just trying to bare the emotion and guilt. In the garden the tree's just hanged like empty souls from the sky and the sound of her crying just seemed to add so much pain into me.
It was like hell. I saw her and shouted, "Clara, please i'm sorry"
"You jerk just get away from me,"
"But Clara, I never knew you even liked me that way,"
"Couldn't you even tell? You could've just said to me in the first place"
"I didnt know how you'd even react..."
"Well now you do and it hurts me deep inside to know how you treat your old friend"
"How is it my fault that things have changed so much? You never gave me a chance to tell you"
"Yeah? Then what about suggesting to come here?"
"I just wanted to spend more time with you." It just fell silent. The wind brushed along the ground and then she spoke.
"Just leave me Jack, I don't want to see you again."

Ever since then, the world fell silent on my shoulders and I kept on with life, apart from knowing I'd lost a great old friend who made me realise that it's not always about what you say, but when you say it.